this is going to be a mixed feeling post so for the benefit of the people who're here to only read happy stuff, this part of the post is for you(:

FUNNY THINGS THAT HAPPENED OVER THE WEEK (and last)

At SYFC:

capt beber: any of you eat.. *thinks* vegetarians?
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some annoying pig: i don't teach children. i only teach professional pilots. so if you're not serious don't waste my bloody time. [everybody on the count of three raise your eyebrows..]


At training:
1) it is possible to march same hand same leg for a prolonged period of time. saw a sec 2 from gb did that. for 5 min, no less. awesome.
2) zomg during ncc day rehearsal i stood till i got butt cramp ><
3) I AM THE 17TH TALLEST PERSON IN MY COMPANY!!! [no comments from huiyi! >_>]

At school:

claire mok: *looks at my name tag* blablabla eh amanda min!
jaslyn: eh?
claire mok: nono amanda yi!
jaslyn: OMG CLAIRE..
claire mok: OH OH OH AMANDA CHAN!!
amanda:..
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amanda: jaslyn's agent 001!
claire mok: then i'm 007!
amanda: NOOOO i am!!
claire mok: FINE then i am agent 007.5 *BEAMS*
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setting: tiffany performing on stage. proceeds to say something. holds on to mike, all prepared to say something.

me and jas: let's embarrass her!
*tiffy takes mike, starts to speak*
me and jas: *WHOOPS* YAY TIFFY! GO TIFFY! WHOOOOOOOOOO!
tiffy: *stares, shakes head at us*
me and jas: *waits til she finishes speaking* ALL RIGHT TIFFY! ALL RIGHT!!
*when it's over*
me and jas: ENCORE, TIFFY! ENCORE!!!

but of course this was a rehearsal(: so don't worry, having great great situational awareness we won't embarrass you on the real day((:

okay this is the end of my happy post. p.s. operation b.u.n.k. is going to be a success. i am determined (: but..

okay for all ppl who can't take weird/depressing stuff i suggest you stop here(:



yep okay. yesterday was training and all. anyway, i felt super super bad and disappointed in myself. honestly, i don't know what was going through my mind at that time. have you experienced it? like you memorized a whole speech and the moment you walk up on stage you just forgot every single thing? i finally knew how that felt. and that feeling sucks.


those ppl who think they're not weirded out but are now yes please go. cos the following is kinda weird(:

i did self reflection.

though i absolutely detest it (capitalized in font 98.5) , but i realised that it is important and its significance. it clears your thoughts and help you set aims. so i suggest you all reading to do the same thing(:


this is a portion of my results from reflection..


anyway, now you're reading the post of an amanda under construction. i am going to make changes, starting from myself. i don't care if people can see it or if they even care, but i am answerable to myself. anyway, it's something that someone said that got all of us thinking. anyway, i am going from now on. this time, there is no expiry date.


(you think i'd bare my heart and soul on my blog? HAH!)



p.s. i know you know i know i'm talking about you.. so sorry to make you hear all my rants and non-stop worrying last night(: thanks so much for sticking with my through thick and thin! it's definitely not that you're second choice or any rubbish like that k. anyway, you are right. i'm answerable to myself.. and honestly, i'd despise myself if i don't do what's right and what's best for everyone (see, self reflection really really works.) or what's true to my heart. i'm glad you're readily available! (your word, not mine! xP ) but i don't believe your warped theory of "the most comfortable face" thingum. haha.


and when i want to talk to the person i really want to, it just doesn't seem right anymore.


and that's what keeping me away.

anyway, i believe that everything that's happening is God's will. since it's intended to happen, let's make the best out of it!




let us write a whole new chapter together(:

HUIYI LIAR LIAR PANTS ON FIRE! *boom*
BZ wow, this is funny farm, what with kevin as the pig and you as the cow : D
ENGHAN hahahaha why don't you put your contact number too?
HERMAN *gasps* hahahah hello(:
ENGHAN you wish! :x
LIYANA i haven't even seen you
DEBBS hahahaa ehh buy me a Piper Warrior for my 21st birthday lah! hahaha wink (:
BZ haha thanks ((: