i haven't visited this blog for so long. i didn't intend to. but i've decided-- i can't just let it be inside. i need to express what i feel in my heart, maybe this will disentangle my emotions.

it all started last year when i did something very, very wrong to tiffany. i don't know why i did it, but stupidly, i still did. then she got angry, understandably.

this year, it got alot worse when i took over as csm. i did my best, but my best wasn't good enough for the others. tiffany wouldn't even talk to me. how was i supposed to work with her? but still, i tried. i guess it did work out for awhile, rather forcefully. but at least we talked.

then, it came to a point whereby jaslyn, huiyi and miranda, my long time best buds, started to distance themselves from me. i was confused-- i didn't understand. jaslyn told me that if there's anything, i can go to her, as long as it helps. but now, she wouldn't even look at me. it hurts that i've let her into my mind and told her my thoughts, but now she is turning her back on me.

then julie. she used to ask me to look for her almost every week to talk about cca problems. she even once promised me that she will definitely tell me if there's anything that i'm doing wrongly.. but now, it seemed as if she has ganged up with them to go against me.

and now tiffany, jaslyn, eewen, huiyi and miranda and best buds. i'm on the outside. i don't know how i became the underdog. watching them laugh and tell secrets to each other, and knowing that i was once in that position, it didn't feel good. i was on the verge of tears almost everyday. like seriously. i really don't understand why this world can be so complicated.

sometimes i wish this world can be devoid.

no more loneliness.
no more sadness.
no more hurt.
no more pain.
no more cold.
no more unfairness.
no more misunderstandings.
no more bad influence.
no more bad mouthing.
no more segregation.
no more.

alrighty! finally uploaded them all *phew*. hahah the descriptions are below(:



okay, i really need your help in this, the person in the middle insists that the wax women are the Twins (taiwan pop duo). it isn't, right???


"OH WAIT OFF *snap* THE FLASH-"



Lava.. duno what she was staring at.


lava and her cute baby smile, and chloe! (she'll frigging murder me)


who knew Stitch had chest hair?


Julie and jas. jaslyn's trying to eat a cereal bar.


celeste.. smsing someone;D


vinyl nails! hahahah.


that's me on the top and miranda taking the photo. she wound and wound me up the seat so freaking high up. that was the day we watched Beverly Hills Chihuahua.


Circled is Jeff Wang! omgosh so cool right. he looks better in real life. the person exceedingly huge in green is my sister.


The woman on the right is Belinda Lee! i saw her first in the lift and she looked back at me LOL. so exciting.


Graffiti on a bus chair..


Another Crazy Christmas! awesome.

"Singapore Flyer. It's a ROUND trip."
"Singapore Flyer. From the heart of Marina Bay.. to the heart of Marina Bay."
"put a zi char store at the bottom to attract people to go.. Singapore Flyer.. to the Singapore Fryer."

Hossan Leong is brilliant!


SHOTS FROM LOVEACTUALLY:

First part. whereby they were dancing.


Then she brought him home and she got excited..


That's when the guy confessed to his best friend's girlfriend. he never said anything to her due to "self-preservation".








SO SWEET RIGHT!!!!


then she ran out and kissed him.


"all i want for christmas is.. you *points to little boy*" SMASHING.


that's the Prime Minister and Natalie. how.. inconspicuous.



where is the little girl? oh there she is, ready to enter the waiting area..


the boy goes "O:"


Aurelia's sister. "apparently he's going to kill aurelia.."





her sister again! because he said he can stay here with her or she can go back to England with him.


"yes" is my answer!


look at that silly grin on his face.. must be love.








yeah. natalie pouncing on PM. inconspicuous much..


collage thingy at the end.


let's play.. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TO SEE?


COCA-COLA TOWER.. what do you see? a few bottles taken down and plastic bottles put up by kind members of public..


what do you see?

those who see the Singapore Calender Guys, you all are sickos.. those who see Shokudo, you all also sickos.. heheh.


"what's that pigeon doing on the floor.." [pigeon's head was 180deg to the back omgosh]


that poop mark on the floor's not made by the pigeon, btw.


after 10 stories of hiking up my block(: (: yes, same day which benedict forbade me not to climb..

TAG REPLIES!

HUIYI} yeah i shall excuse you..
ALVIN} because it's cold lonely christmas season!
HY} NO it's pancreatic cancer. and yeah prepare to be slayed!
BRIN} it was during an extremely boring lesson. so it's either physics or geog..
PK/BRYAN} well, aerosmith is the original singer (:
NANA} LALA. oh it rhymes^^
BRYAN} bry-rye >_>
HY} you like asking the obvious, don't you? oO
BALTHUS} ahh speaking of which, what's yours? no sensitivity here i hope :/
HY} it's okay, slow and steady wins the race.

As her fingers typed out her grievances, she paused before she pressed 'Enter'. Does she really want to let him be burdened with her troubles as well as hers?



Her fingers danced on the Backspace button.


sometimes it loneliness creeps in and squeezes your heart with its bare cold hands.

HY} excuse me while i find a way to kill myself without leaving too much blood over the walls..
Alvin} nooooooooo XD of course. philosophical questions aren't easy to answer.. or i should bury myself in the sand with just my limbs sticking out(:
kevin} D:
PK} sometimes you need someone to lean on, too.
enghan} LOL sure sure XD
Alvin} [kevin, i told you he won't know already.. so much for awkwardness.]


huiyi is as weird as weirder than me.

"omgosh i'm going overseas tomorrow! fine, over the customs. two days one night."
"oO where you gonna sleep?"
"on the streets. OF COURSE HOTEL LAH."

[i was thinking hotel/motel, you see.]
--
"then how you gonna get there!"
"oh i'm gonna walk there. DUH DRIVE LAH."

[maybe tour bus. HAIYO.]

and okay my pictures post is coming soon. really soon.

ANOTHER CRAZY CHRISMAS!<3 size="40">
the shadow of the wolf flited past.

sometimes.. i wonder, what if one day, i have something on my heart which hurts alot and i need to tell someone, but yet i don't have anyone to tell, what will i do?


have you thought about it?


the day will come earlier than expected.

alrighty! finally uploaded them all *phew*. hahah the descriptions are below(:



okay, i really need your help in this, the person in the middle insists that the wax women are the Twins (taiwan pop duo). it isn't, right???


"OH WAIT OFF *snap* THE FLASH-"



Lava.. duno what she was staring at.


lava and her cute baby smile, and chloe! (she'll frigging murder me)


who knew Stitch had chest hair?


Julie and jas. jaslyn's trying to eat a cereal bar.


celeste.. smsing someone;D


vinyl nails! hahahah.


that's me on the top and miranda taking the photo. she wound and wound me up the seat so freaking high up. that was the day we watched Beverly Hills Chihuahua.


Circled is Jeff Wang! omgosh so cool right. he looks better in real life. the person exceedingly huge in green is my sister.


The woman on the right is Belinda Lee! i saw her first in the lift and she looked back at me LOL. so exciting.


Graffiti on a bus chair..


Another Crazy Christmas! awesome.

"Singapore Flyer. It's a ROUND trip."
"Singapore Flyer. From the heart of Marina Bay.. to the heart of Marina Bay."
"put a zi char store at the bottom to attract people to go.. Singapore Flyer.. to the Singapore Fryer."

Hossan Leong is brilliant!


SHOTS FROM LOVEACTUALLY:

First part. whereby they were dancing.


Then she brought him home and she got excited..


That's when the guy confessed to his best friend's girlfriend. he never said anything to her due to "self-preservation".








SO SWEET RIGHT!!!!


then she ran out and kissed him.


"all i want for christmas is.. you *points to little boy*" SMASHING.


that's the Prime Minister and Natalie. how.. inconspicuous.



where is the little girl? oh there she is, ready to enter the waiting area..


the boy goes "O:"


Aurelia's sister. "apparently he's going to kill aurelia.."





her sister again! because he said he can stay here with her or she can go back to England with him.


"yes" is my answer!


look at that silly grin on his face.. must be love.








yeah. natalie pouncing on PM. inconspicuous much..


collage thingy at the end.


let's play.. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TO SEE?


COCA-COLA TOWER.. what do you see? a few bottles taken down and plastic bottles put up by kind members of public..


what do you see?

those who see the Singapore Calender Guys, you all are sickos.. those who see Shokudo, you all also sickos.. heheh.


"what's that pigeon doing on the floor.." [pigeon's head was 180deg to the back omgosh]


that poop mark on the floor's not made by the pigeon, btw.


after 10 stories of hiking up my block(: (:


THE END!